Thursday, February 10, 2011

What we don't know...


What we don’t know about Saint Scholastica makes me love her all the more. Twin sister of our holy father, Saint Benedict, she is considered the patroness of all Benedictine nuns. In addition to the brief narrative on their birth at Norcia, we are given just two vignettes about holy Scholastica in The Dialogues of Pope Gregory the Great. This is slim pickings next to the many miracles attributed to her brother’s great faith. In The Rule of Benedict she is given no mention at all. Yet, given these few breadcrumbs we can follow Scholastica into the heart of God if we pay careful attention to what is given, but more importantly, to what is absent.


Today, in Benedictine monasteries all over the world, the story will be read again. Throughout their lives in community, the holy twins would meet once a year for a day. The story is about their last meeting. As evening began to fall, Benedict prepared to return to his monastery, as was the custom. Scholastica, eager to keep talking with her brother about the things of heaven, begged him to stay the night. Saint Benedict refused. It was, very simply, against the rule. Unable to bear his departure, Scholastica lowered her head, wept and prayed. Suddenly, a storm worth of the Weather Channel began to roar and pour. Benedict, more angry than surprised, asked her what she’d done. “When I appealed to you, you would not listen to me. So I turned to my God and He heard my prayer." Her prayer was heard, we are told in the narrative, because she loved more. It’s no wonder the gospel read on this feast is the story of Martha and Mary. Mary, who chose the “better part”, would not, Jesus says, have to suffer its loss. Scholastica died three days after this last meeting. Her spirit was made visible to her brother soaring as a dove into the heavens. He commands that her body be brought to his monastery and placed in the tomb prepared for his burial, where, some time later, they are reunited – as it was in their beginning.

So, like “Columbo” in a trench coat, I want to walk around this scene and see beyond the mystery of their relationship. I see in her longing a deep love for God and her need to process that longing in relationship. That feels like our life as monastic women – why I need community. OSB stands for the Order of Saint Benedict. Yet, there is a softness in the Holy Rule – an uncompromising call for compassion, moderation and forgiveness. What Saint Benedict calls “good zeal” can be rightly understood as the heart on fire with love for God and for one another. Scholastica’s heart was indeed on fire with love – a love more powerful than the monastic structures that governed her life. Benedict encourages us to “prefer nothing to the love of Christ.” Perhaps, he learned that priority from someone he loved very deeply – someone who knew that truth in her heart. Will we ever be able to unearth her story from these two sources? Probably not. But, these two stories can attune our ears for the sound of her voice between the lines. Saint Scholastica was content with her place - first prioress of the first “Benedictine” monastery for women. The absence of her story in his, tells me that she was a woman of great humility. We can only imagine the impact of her love in his monastic life and her example of holiness within her own household. Pope Gregory, in The Dialogues, tells me all I need to know about Saint Scholastica as he reflects on her answered prayer: “Do we not read in St. John that God is love? Surely it is no more than right that her influence was greater than his, since hers was the greater love.”
Happy feast!
Blessings and love to you all...
- Sister Vicki

Friday, February 4, 2011

"All in"...



It’s a poker term. I learned it the other night when my software provider offered a FREE download of a game called, “Texas Hold ‘Em.” Now, I’m not seeking hours of stress relief, just 5 minutes of play between tasks. These “apps” are great in that they teach a complete novice in a few short hands. I’ve learned that three of a kind beats 2 pair. And, there are two kinds of “straights” – five cards in order or five in order of the same suit which constitutes a “flush”. OK…I think I’m getting into it. Will I have to give it up for Lent? I don’t think so. But I have noticed an interesting character trait in myself. When I think I’ve got a really good hand going, I press the button that says, “All in.” That means I invest everything - all my chips - in that hand. I know. It’s a little extreme. If I’m wrong, it’s not pretty. But, when I’m right, it’s very nice. (I have the same feeling when some poor thing on "Jeopardy" gets the “daily double.” I find myself shouting, “Bet it all!”


This new game intrigues me. The learning curve is pretty steep and so much is, literally, the luck of the draw. But that’s what makes it exciting. It’s a bit like our monastic life. New members have a big learning curve. Well, it’s not quite as hard as NASA training, but it does require that one just keeps breathing O2 as one investigates a totally new world. I guess I wouldn’t say that our life has anything to do with "luck," but given the events of the past year, we are all too aware that life happens – the good and the bad – and how we respond to it is the key to our spiritual journey. It’s been six months since the car accident. Sister Charlotte has been at the convent in Richmond since the New Year. Sister Connie Ruth is home at the monastery giving her energy to prayer and P/T. As a community of monastic women, we have never been more aware of God’s abiding love for us and of the power of intercessory prayer. God is so close…and in moments of personal or communal suffering, that presence is intense for those who believe. We are on to some new kind of “normal.” And we know the One who walks with us as we journey forward.

Yes, I’m playing poker on the computer - no cigar, no beer can, no felt under my fingertips. I am surprised by the delight it brings – especially when I have the winning hand. For me choosing to be a Benedictine Sister has made all the difference in my life – it is a winning hand. And there is no other way to live it than to be “all in.”

Blessings and love to you all...

- Sister Vicki

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

One of those moments...


photos: Michelle Sinkhorn, OSB (Ferdinand, IN)

There are moments in life that feel huge – they crystallize even as you are still experiencing them. I had that feeling this past weekend as 100 Benedictine women - under the age of 55 - from across North America and Puerto Rico gathered to celebrate a hopeful future. This assembly was especially significant because we met beyond the boundaries of our federations/congregations – the structures that currently exist to organize our houses. I saw women I haven’t seen since I was a novice and met many I had never met before. New friends - all daughters of Benedict and Scholastica – it doesn’t get any better than that for an extrovert!

What Hilton or Holiday Inn did we co-opt for this nun-fest? Truly, monastic women are happiest at home so we chose to meet in one of two monasteries large enough to accommodate a group of this size – Mount St. Scholastica Monastery, Atchison, KS. We are indebted to the prioress there, Sister Ann Sheperd, OSB and the many sisters who made hospitality seem effortless.


Today, the Church celebrates the Feast of the Presentation – the special day that Mary and Joseph brought their baby to God in the Temple at Jerusalem. The first male child – consecrated, set apart for God’s service and glory – just happened to be the long-awaited Savior of the world – his very flesh the temple of the Most High God. It was surely an overwhelming moment for his parents, Simeon and Anna – the holy prophets who longed to see his face.


There is another layer to this feast – it is one day in which our Church acknowledges religious women and men everywhere who have consecrated their lives to God’s service. As we celebrated (a little early) with Bishop Di Lorenzo yesterday, I couldn’t help thinking of those 100 women in Kansas. Each sister represents a family that gave a daughter to God through the Order of St. Benedict. Those 100 are just a small segment within the Benedictine household - and a tiny speck in the great gathering of all women religious - so many lives given in true freedom, so many faithful parents willing to give back to God a most precious child. May God bless the women in discernment with our monasteries and give their families the courage to support them in their search for God. Happy feast!


Blessings and love to you all…
- Sister Vicki

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Through Him...


This morning I prayed to JESUS. Not a big deal for a sister, you say. It is for me. Usually, when my heart is moved to pray, I tell my hopes and fears to God. I don’t know why. It’s just how I work. How wonderful that our God is Three! For each of us who believe, one face of God touches us, draws us in. For me, it has always been the Creator and Source of all being. That said, I love JESUS. I remember being very little and knowing that the stories about Him were absolutely true. I was taught (circa 1970) that JESUS was the Good Shepherd, my brother and friend. And, because He loves the little children, I suspect He was very close to my entire First Grade class. But as I grew older I sensed that there was Someone there for me – Someone even there for JESUS. I have had no image to go with that Mystery. I just have always known God’s abiding presence.

So…this morning I broke protocol and asked the Son for something really important. Today in Paul’s letter to the Hebrews we read, “Jesus is always able to save those who approach God through him, since he lives forever to make intercession for them (Heb 7:25).” I was stunned by this one sentence. I’m certain I’ve heard it a dozen times or more in the Sunday celebration. (That’s the beauty of the practice of lectio divina – every word can become the Word on any given day.) This morning I was overwhelmed at the thought of His permanent divine function – to talk to God for me! My mind says, “Yes, of course,” for in His very person the finite and eternal are mystically, eternally joined. This morning, however, that gracious offer of endless intercession reached my heart. May we never fail to turn to Him who first turned to us in the irreversible act of the Incarnation. The Lord JESUS has already brought all that we are to the Father. He offers now to place our needs in the hollow of God’s hands. Today, it was an offer I just couldn’t refuse. "Through Him, with Him, in Him, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, all glory and honor is yours, Almighty Father, forever and ever. Amen."
Blessings and love to you all…
- Sister Vicki

Monday, January 10, 2011

On the last day of Christmas...





We received a very special gift - two faithful, loving women intent of seeking God in our midst. Joanna Burley, a Florida native and Shirley Arce, of California, knocked on our chapel door at Evening Prayer last evening. Both women have been participating in our Live- In Program for the past year and a half. This day marks the official beginning of their monastic journey. Shirley and Joanna knocked together and were greeted at the door by our prioress, Sister Cecilia. Their family and friends followed them over our threshold - a sign that they, too, are becoming part of our extended community. On the last day of Christmas, God gave us joy. Rejoice with us and keep our newest postulants in your prayers.


Blessings and love to you all...

- Sister Vicki

Monday, January 3, 2011

Star of wonder...


When was the last time you followed a star? I’ve been asking myself that question since the Sunday celebration of the Epiphany. You know the story: three mystics from the East bring gifts to the King of kings whom they find resting in some straw. This wonderful story highlights the cosmic nature of the incarnation. God became flesh – not just for we who would come to believe but for the salvation of the whole world. Twentieth-century scientists have analyzed the appearance of “the star of Bethlehem.” It turns out that a celestial event did occur in the night sky in the winter of 7 BC. The convergence of Jupiter and Saturn has been documented in ancient texts and confirmed by modern astronomers. Those three wise ones knew the prophecy of ancient Israel and understood the stars as markers of the divine will. They left the considerable comfort of their nation to travel by night – by the light of a star. So convinced were they that God was revealing a great secret beneath its beams.


I think God sends us a “star” when we need some direction. There are moments in every life when we find ourselves at a crossroad and don’t know which path to take. The last star I followed took me from my home, my friends and everything I knew to be my world. It was a long trek by modern standards – a three-day drive into the heart of the Midwest. It was only a year into this journey that I discovered God’s purpose. It was on the 4th day of January, 2000 when I drove up the driveway of St. Benedict Monastery. My heart pounded as the cedar grove gave way to a country chapel. The bell beneath the cross was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen. It made no sense – this visceral response. But that’s how God works sometimes – in the mystery of our feelings. God sent me a star that led me home. It came to rest over a big house of red brick and stained glass. Like those first travelers I found Him there – in their midst. When was the last time you followed a star? Epiphany is an excellent moment to give thanks for this God who goes to great lengths to lead us on.
Blessings and love to you all…

- Sister Vicki

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Christmas is still coming...


I thought Christmas came early in mid-December when Sister Connie Ruth came home. Having both sisters home again made any gift under the tree seem like overkill. Then, a few weeks later, I thought Christmas came when we were given the OK to decorate the monastery. (We live the fullness of Advent so greens, red ribbon and lights don’t go up until the 23rd!) And on Christmas Eve, as good friends and annual Mass-goers came together at midnight, I thought Christmas came in the candlelight and the bells and bows. Then, early in the darkness of Christmas morning, I sat alone by our Christmas tree with a blessed cup of coffee. Most of the house was still asleep as the Midnight Mass festivities ended around 2 AM. I felt Christmas come again in the silence of my heart.


Christmas comes whenever we think of GOD’s great leap into the human condition, whenever bells and bows remind us of the real gift we have in Jesus. Christmas comes whenever we allow the Word into our flesh, whenever we welcome the stranger as guest or make peace our quest and aim. The older I get the more I love this great feast. Every Christmas is an opportunity to receive Him in the heart, to adore Him with our humble gifts, to proclaim Him with our love. Today is liturgically the 3rd day of Christmas – it is a season. Christmas is still coming, friends. Welcome it…share it…give thanks for it. From our house to yours, a Merry Christmas!

Blessings and love to you all…
- Sister Vicki